taking slow
visiting my family this week. time is slower here. so much so that i can't even think of a highlight to bring here. though, i am enjoying the slowness, the comfort, the long sleeps, total laziness. meanwhile working remotely, all three of us, get into the my studying times mood, as a reflex or ptsd, heh. i get my fruit plates during my standups. can't complain, that triggered some focus times.
listened kino this week, apparently they are the new obsession of my nephew, i am trying to catch up with his taste, although i can't even parse the cyrillic song names. this one is my favorite so far.
and these days i am hooked to radio mrurrm, run by ezgi, and i am loving it: radio mrurrm. isn't radio streaming beautiful? like every song is served to you, because someone intentionally has listened to it and now shares it with you, with the trace of why the person chose it or what's the reflection behind. and gracefully gives it to your attention? the thoughtfulness it takes & brings, how cool is that?! there are 2 formats, one is weekly, day air, in english. the other is in turkish, where she hosts a friend. this turkish episode is fantastic. the level of sincerity of the conversation is soo soothing. indeed this week's watch is a reference from this episode. i watched the fatma of the forest with my parents here. a documentary from 1979, 12 year old girl reflecting on how hard earning life in the forests of toros mountains as a nomad family. while incomparable how difficult the life for this family, some elements were super familiar to my parents' stories in their villages. and it triggered us that we dug deeper on why my dad's village significantly different than my mom's village, where nomadic traditions were largely different. looks like even though the town identifies as sunni today, customs/traditions have lots of alevi-bektashi influence and there is the "ahilik" (e.g. the guild of shoemakers). internet says that historically the village most probably got oppressed to convert, just like many other anatolian towns. anyways, apart from the folkloric parts, the episode is super cool, with so many relatable discussions.
read: here is an insane, but intriguing idea: > i let claude code read 14 years of my daily journals. no lies, i actually tried to get some analysis for this short blog history after seeing this post. i didn't use the prompts shared but simply asked for an analysis. and even that already pointed some patterns which was a bit slap on the face, only tiny bit sugar coated :D but luckily only a few weeks here so far. so it's easy to find excuses to deny the patterns and not get self concious about it. how to dare for the whole history? i've been also keeping diaries for years, maybe almost for 20 years now? glad that they are not digital otherwise i might have tried this, even if it's a "nightmare" idea as the post says. and speaking of them not being digital, i wonder how long we, the people keep diaries for years, can keep piling them up? what's the solution? having another room in the apartment for them eventually? contact. help.
